WTF? She's insane!!!

I may have to do this in a list, but I'm not sure. Maybe a mind map would be better. Maybe if I write it out I will figure out what is important and what isn't important, and maybe I will be so whelmed (over, under, and all the way around) that I will crawl quivering to my closet and hide like I did when I was young. I have a horrible character flaw. in that I can not focus. I have all sorts of interests and every time something new comes along..."Oh, shiny" my ADD kicks in and I am off on a tangent (which can sometimes be a very rough ride.) I don't mind being a generalist most of the time. It's okay to know just enough about something to be dangerous, especially since I really to have the skills to find out more if I really want to.

It would help if my memory didn't suck. It would help if I had enough confidence to believe that I could be really good at one or two things...I don't, so I am half assed at many things. That's where I am now. I need to figure out what I am trying to accomplish first, and then maybe I can figure out what I need to do to get things done.

In no particular order:

meditation-to help with focus and pain--->how does meditation impact my spirituality and how can I open up to being more spiritual-I am a zen pagan, but I don't know a whole lot about either formal buddhism or paganism (make a list of books about zen and paganism, sit with jundo in the beginning meditation class, write)--->writing-I have 3 blogs, twitter, facebook, live journal, google reader, email, and an analog journal. I want to write more book reviews (for amazon, etc) and put them on one of the blogs, depending on whether the book is feminist/music oriented, library oriented, or other-->library-this is my "real world" job and I like it, but it makes me so tired sometimes (not to mention I start surfing the web to pick up ideas about librarianship and possibly blog them and every time I do I fall further and further behind)/I'm on the student training committee and I haven't done enough work for that/I'm weeding the vertical file and trying to make sure the information is available on the G://drive and maybe as a LibGuide or something-->trying to integrate the tools I use like gmail/google search. evernote, zotero, etc.-->women's history month/Womyn Making Waves (both the show and the blog)/weft-->control my diabetes so I am not tired all the time and I don't hurt-->food planning and exercise--->I have to get out of bed in the morning if I am going to exercise...if I can't manage the pool due to timing I can still walk and meditate-->D&D-this is how I connect with Sean and I actually enjoy it most of the time (especially if we make it a two day marathon game once a month instead of a one day plus 6 hour round trip)-->watching tv/movies with TC because we don't spend enough time together (again a timing problem)-->make time to connect with Cheron and Kathi--and I just found this kick ass class called "this is your brain on the internet," signed up for HASTAC and downloaded the first book from the syllabus (i should have read it anyhow) because I am interested the the way the internet changes your brain and in neuroscience and brain plasticity (and the dalai lama is into science which takes me back to buddhist study)-->and howard rheingold is into some of the things I find interesting like infotention and crap detection, because infoliteracy is something that libraries need to focus on-->slow reading is here someplace, as well-->and TED-->there is a TEDx conference coming up and I want to take part in it-->I need a vacation on my own, but we aren't even going to any science fiction conventions again until Duckon-->and kittencon is in April.

...and this is just the stuff that is floating around in my brain on a friday afternoon.

Reading List:
Girls Like Us-currently reading for WHM
Eden's outcasts (about LM Alcott & her father)
Engineer of human souls (@mikecane mentioned)
Gutenberg Galaxy, Marshall McLuhan
In the name of heaven, 3000 years of religious persecution
Migrations to solitude-Sue Halpern
Name of the Rose-Umberto Eco (someone on twitter recommended)
Of time and the river-has a good library quote
Twilight of the superheroes
Wanderlust:a history of walking-Rebecca Solnit
The Diving Bell and the Butterfly-1st book for "this is your brain on the internet"
This Book is Overdue-hot new librarian book
Turning the Mind into an Ally-Sakyong Rimpost
For Us, the Living - Robert Heinlein's lost first novel (a reread)

Just finished the 3 Aud Torvingen books by Nicola Griffin

I'm sure I'm missing something. I HATE to miss things.